Why are the cars outside going crazy damning my relationship?

So, I guess you can't get close to most people, in the end.  Act really nice at a peak point and then they'll stop being as friendly and turn you away.

So, why are people grouping me with mean people?

So, it doesn't matter if someone is nice to me because someone else will find out and speak up and pipe up and speak their mind.

My life is illogically knocked off like I "did something" and "don't matter."

Sometimes, my dad isn't okay for me to be around.  What do I do?  Sometimes, I need the kitchen, and it's right with the living room, where my brother reclines on the couch like things are okay for him, though, until he sees me and seems upset.

So what, my life could be messed up.

This is so worthless now.

People are going psycho being mean to me because I was upset something happened forever for the first time, like this.  Get a life.

So, why is it always I did something wrong? since Hillary lost herself the Presidency.

So I'm worthless compared to other people?

So, then, what happened to me?

...and it's an excuse for a punishment from any old thing

Why should this matter if I don't matter to me?

So, I shouldn't be upset because you don't care if it's real?

The older lady I know keeps having problems.

They think if I get something I can't get anything else but others do.

Once I say what they say doesn't even matter, they will come back like a "headless chicken" running around, no offense with that symbol.

They say because the older lady is nice to me that she is the good one and I am the bad one.

If people involved monitoring me in private know what I mean, they don't care.

They are acting sneakily like an older lady I know gets anything she likes and others get "put down."

I guess whoever it is or whatever it is is just gonna sit there and act stupid like an animal and not say anything but not stop.

Well, nothing happened and it may not be okay.

They are ruining my day and I may not be okay and reach my goals and live okay in life and I'll be blamed.

This is another "first."

So, the older lady I know got all this attention because I got to know here but I can't because she's messed up now.

The people monitoring me in private keep being mean to me like it's a joke they can just do it whenever and it'll be better.

My dad won't stop ruining my life because the people monitoring me in private don't like me posting on a problems blog.  Someone I know seems to have acted like at some point had to give up on our relationship to a degree and hand over my secretes to others to irritate me.  I can't say what he did cuz the messages keep coming more and are like stupid but seem to have terminated my relationship and her being okay, though she is in on it.

I keep being made to look bad around other people just because people think they have the excuse that I'm in trouble.

They break big promises.

People think I have to worship people acting like brats because they are incompetent and think they caught me not being perfect a little.  I don't agree with them.

I went from being liked to being put in the position of begging.

They are threatening me in a gay way, like if anything comes up.

The people monitoring me in private are pushing me to be unhappy and like I can't blog what I want of my problems.

Why is it just getting worse?

Why do the people monitoring me in private seem unnecessarily anti-functional?  I think what I think, and they both take it the wrong way and don't accept my subconscious gloss-overs.  They make up things about me.  They also act like I'm an awkward person when they have a negative message to send.

I'm just saying.  I don't mean to make things worse because I said this.  Also, I still am taking it that someone I know isn't really the one being mean to me, unlike most kinds of people.

Small to Big

It's fine whatever anyone wants, but something's the matter.