It's like they're all fancy with their gadgets like I'm just shit dealing with emotional abuse and this.

So what, we can still blame the people directly involved or just all of them about maybe.

They and the public are hypnotized that I'm inappropriate but kinda like Johnny Depp too being cool.  They say why not try the older lady I like, like my relationship to her is "up for grabs."

See, it is a problem, in the end, pretending I'm in trouble to that degree.

Why are there always problems about me going around here, I hear the cars outside, even some with my earplugs in.

Don't act like that all did not just happen.

I'm tired of dealing with this stupidity.  It just comes back.  More is made.

Why does my relationship keep coming up.  Can you stop.

When will these violent animals stop ruining my life?  Not "are they" but "when."

The cars are whining selfishly like they are sure I am sadly in trouble.  I don't care.

My relationship is being compensated because I e-mailed my aunts about a problem.

I'm being threatened...

I guess it's my responsibility.

They keep teasing me like the older lady I like is dumping me for others in extreme and far out ways that don't seem to even make sense or exist.  I'm not even the one who wants everyone obsessing about her all the time, but if that's what it is...

So, like my dad demands... it's getting worse and worse.

I don't want to be bossed around.

No, I did the right thing ^because I wanted to^.

I'm not allowed to complain about stuff like it's okay.  This is bad, and I sense other thoughts coming to them.  They just keep being annoying.  It seems like it's gone too far.  I can't do anything without them getting mad.

The people monitoring me in private etc. keep bothering me.

They are saying someone I know is getting closer than me to someone I like in a teasing way when I do something, like I wrote a note to some people about someone else.

The people on Twitter I follow about places are mad at me for being from Southeastern Florida.  Like, are you gonna tell me where you're from?

People in Orlando all swear an older lady said what they said, so they can save up for something big and call it off.

Some people have things happen to them without saying anything.

Why do some people like it when something stupid happens and it's no one's fault? and I get in trouble?  People are crazy who believe that.

I don't care if people are jealous of things they shouldn't be aware of.  Mind your own business.

Funny when it seems things are given to me I didn't ask for and what I should have in some form taken from me.

My dad being mad ruined my life.

It seems like I'm always in trouble with some things even if I'm nice.

I know they have a VIP to do mean things to me because of my past being psychiatrically beaten in Orlando, like there must just be something wrong with me because though these people were doing it they thought it was impossible.

It's getting uncomfortable sitting here with the people monitoring me in private after it was sworn I would always be on about someone how I don't want because it's not even realistic and is schizophrenic.

So, still, they are doing things to me I can't live with.

So, they are messed up from the start, saying it's okay to hurt me socially, emotionally, etc.  They think they need to affect my relationship negatively a lot with an older lady, pretending it doesn't matter, when what I do does minutely but I'm not helped so much in a way.

So, did you know they acted like someone was bothering me while someone else was being elated in some way that was against me, like the opposite, for a silly reason?

They have all this on schedule, but I wonder what was affected negatively.  They think they are so cool.  They have certain people doing it, too, like "real people" who aren't monitoring me in private. They are messed up, like it's okay if it's me, like "taking advantage of" my good nature.  I'm not sure why I was in that much trouble to begin with.  Was it just because of my dad?  Strangers don't do it who are nice, too, though.  I think I already seem to have automatically taken that into consideration.  I know people seem to make it worse like they're on schedule, like my dad can trust anyone to do anything for him because he is whiter than me, people go by.

I have been trying to forget about it, as I'm not supposed to be posting about this to them.  It came up and things got in the way.

Sometimes, this gives me an outlet.  I can post my real feelings on my regular blog, unless it's something like this.  It would clutter up my blog, as it always has.  It sees like I'm posting less and less here.

I think the older lady I like is in some position against me, put there too.  Oh well?  What can you do?  Does it matter still, like I say?  I don't want to be on people's bad lists, even if I don't talk to them.

So, let's hope for a good time and things we like.