They were joking that this wouldn't end because they're gay.

Do you think it hurts when something I post is considered unimportant like I've been posting?

The people monitoring me in private act mean to me a lot / "all the time."  Is that so my dad can feel comfortable?

What if people stay this way?

My issue is not the older lady but my dad.  The older lady has fun because like most people she isn't Asian with my dad.

I can never be happy because of my dad.

The people monitoring me in private may not really be doing anything.

It's funny how people are doting on the older lady I like all around, and my body's almost like being flailed into an alleyway, or dungeon.  It's like I wouldn't realize it?


When is my dad emotionally abusing me gonna phase out?  Oh, and I think it's like illegal to say I can't be concerned about it and inhumane and stupid maybe for it not to matter at this point for me.  I feel I'm building my life up, but some intangible things keep bringing me down.

What are these people doing playing "peanut gallery?"

Did some people like this so they could see what I look like when I realize what is happening?


I told my little brother my dying wish, to get off having to take the psychotic med's for my dad.  It's a simple start to a better life, which makes me wonder if my dad is preventing me from having one.  The medicine makes me feel less, a bit more tired, and needing too much sleep to have time to enjoy life on top of "having a life," or career and maybe family.

They are holding out, otherwise, but they keep getting upset if I am naturally upset about it, like that feeling scares them.

They keep being bad to me.

So, why do they make a problem?

Did they make the older lady I like famous only to make me into a problem?

So, I get denied the truth and then later they say, "See?" after I've given up about it.

They keep messing with me between if something is real or not, like it's important to point out.

The people monitoring me in private think I "did something."

I think my dad is mean to me and secretly wants to affect me.

The people monitoring me in private like to hurt me whenever because I can just recover.

They sometimes have a comeback and always see me as bad when I didn't do anything wrong.  I can sense people thinking it's funny, thinking about me?

An Anthem of Me

It seems I met an older lady and often, among others impersonating or maneuvering her, it is swapping places where I don't get anything new anyway... and we are focused on the good parts of meeting someone older, like I "did something," and it's all about her alone meeting older people in these cases and me being sorta ransacked about.

Also, people around me are not being helpful and keep giving off bad influence.

The people monitoring me in private are acting like they're important over me and they have to make me feel bad like the older lady I like left instructions on how to do so for her say.

Do you get a funny feeling you're in trouble for no reason and judged at a microscopic level, while others are not a consideration?

It seems my dad's younger sister, the older one, relaying the message I seem amazing and therefore should matter but that it means being punished for no reason-?  In the end, I'm worse off.

So, I sleep more, but it's probably me being tired from when I worked and didn't get as much sleep.

It seems like an older lady I like actually thought of the idea that I am annoying to her and the people monitoring me in private said it's true.  Like, if I stop doing something so I have more time to myself or for other things etc. that maybe I dwell on the older lady differently.  I'm trying to stay out of trouble.

People are following me and punishing me if they don't like what I say.

Joking Like I'm in Prison Indefinitely

As anyone would say, no one has the right to act like I'm locked up socially.

Some people think they can tell me what to do and use something someone else does with it or something like everyone has the same exception, no problem, no questions asked.

They keep taking what ruins the relationship.

My brother secretly upset me and surprised me when he said hi at a funny time.

He sat there not moving so I went by.


Do you think that's why my little brother is upset but crazy, thinking he can punish me?  They are ruining the older lady I like, like they always do, some new thing that might be important each time like many times every day for years.

They keep having more problems.

The cars outside are going crazy selfishly some.

I don't know what to do.  They won't stop.

Did you notice because of my dad it's like I'm always in trouble?

I said his mom and maybe sister/s like to test me, and so they seem to.

They won't stop.  They are being like "brats."

Lie

They want my relationship not to be there and are canceling everything out suddenly.

They seem like since an older lady I like is involved, they are "excited" but "fresh..."

I feel them watching to see if I do anything they are insecure about.  They probably will log it to ruin my relationship if at an end now.

Anyway, something seems weird.

They are trying to permanently disqualify my relationship with an older lady.  My little brother and the people monitoring me in private suggested it.

The people monitoring me in private also of course feel in the right.

It's like I don't matter, like they have free time to dedicate to ruining my life.

They keep doing stuff.

So, the older lady I like is probably feeling okay and me not.  She is probably being indulged against me.

This isn't some joke.

My brother is making sure he can waste my life like my dad.

I am being bothered and singled out that way.  I didn't do anything wrong, no matter what fantasy comes to them.

Wow, like something happened and some people are involved bothering me.

Now what?  Is "everyone just sitting there?"

The people monitoring me in private are oblivious and must just punish me later when pissed off or don't care.

...like this doesn't matter and they are involved.

I feel sleepy people born a certain year.

They won't stop like they wonder what's happening.

So, my little brother also thinks he can tell me what he wants me to do like I'm punished.

Some people don't have to do it in the end.

It still happened to me physically! and they wonder what happened.

I can feel people being bemused like I come to them for comfort when I'm in fake trouble because of their following my dad.

They keep singling me out like I'm bad and "punish" me like sissies in old age.

Why are people ruining my life? and singling me out that way?

They are being bad and now my dad's sister doesn't care.  What good is some of her involvement?...

Their "selfish," "incompetent" insecurities.

Their inklings are making life shit for me.

They keep punishing me for longer and longer and won't stop bothering me.

My brother did something weird and said hi at a funny time, before.  I had my earplugs in, and he said it funny so I said, "What?"

I can feel the older lady getting everything and what I used to have instead and me getting shit.

I actually looked different, and anyway I wasn't bothered about that part when I was talking or didn't say anything at least and it isn't why I said what I said.

So, I'm punished and the older lady gets like spoiled from them.

The people monitoring me in private think I suck up to them when I'm careful.

My little brother acted like he said I have to do this each time of something to do with an older lady I like, and they're just sitting there.

They won't stop.  It's even like something just happened to others.

Because they monitor me in private, and they saw what I thought when I posted something, they acted like something bad happened to me in the same way which involved indulging an older lady I like to it better and it wouldn't stop.

I am not sitting here eager for crap from them, like they pop in like finally they gave an unwanted verdict.

Some people got mad at me without saying why, maybe because I was awkward.  They already were at me for something I apologized for saying, but it wasn't at them specifically.  It's just over, though, like they wouldn't talk to me but strangely to others.  The problem is for some strange reason they are at me racially, and it's bad.  They think it's normal.  There's some new reason... but I don't know what it is, maybe them being mean and having a funny moment is all.  It is wrong and prejudiced to me... technically speaking.  I am good and good concerning race.  I tried talking to some people, but the people monitoring me in private told everyone I was secretly mad and tricky.

I disagree with whoever is pretending to be someone acting weird.

Oh my gosh, people are so into telling me what to do.  Like, no!  Who the fuck do you think you are?

He was acting like he was stimulated like masturbating except he was doing it..

Why is my dad so in my life with the monitoring me in private?  He's getting disgusting on purpose, his own doing.

Why are you laughing my life is crap?  I am not the one who did anything wrong.  You are mean to me.  I am not.  I'm just not dumb.

My dad was being disgusting again.

People are participating like it's politics.  I didn't technically say anything wrong and didn't mean anything bad.  The world can't tell me what to do.

My dad keeps acting like he can get mad at me if he doesn't like what I post online when it's fine techincally.

They said I can’t know the older lady I like because they own the monitoring me in private.

People insist an older lady I like says to do bad things to me.

Do you want some agreement?  I mean the people spying on me? and afraid to reveal whatever for whatever they wanted?

So, I was reading my blog and realized that if other people were given what I have, they might win because they know I get it if they lose.

Orlando won't leave me in silence.

Problems circulating in Orlando like they're mine sound like "all that" to Orlando.  LA seems like they're on the edge of their seat, which I don't mean as an offense to good people.  Most of them seem okay, though, whatever they're doing.  Anyone get the nature of the ads today?...

My dad acted like it was a joke I should be killed by the older lady I like because he acted like she and someone else were agreeing together to be together like I'm bad and all this was nothing.

It seems I am sitting here waiting for Orlando to "understand," to understand things in my life and beat around the bush at random about it just to hold things "at bay."  It wasn't supposed to get in the way.  Usually, things heal, and I didn't start any problems anyway.

So, they think if I don't just not say anything I'm not attractive to an older lady I like.

They just joked to make her look like something she's not that "she'll kill" me.  They are just being bad pretending I'm joking and did something.

I already separated my issue, that people and the people monitoring me in private following are always annoying me because of what my dad thinks about something to do with me I did...

Who to blame?

It seems like a certain person made people all think of the older lady I like all the time to stimulate her.

They keep acting, well, "stupid," where it's important.

I feel hurt when I'm about to feel good, like something will ruin my life.

People try to reaffirm themselves by acting like I started some things weird.

They keep making more problems, like what if the older lady I like gets coined and I can't have a relationship with her.

Are they uncomfortable about me leaving this issue?

Did I say something wrong just because I said something or thought something ever concerning these things?

They already did it, they are liars.

I was kind of down to 0.  I am singled out for my life to be ruined and it's too late.

So, I tried to do less and be under less pressure, and suddenly I'm being bothered more.

The cars outside keep wanting to know more and find out a word or phrase or topic and it's all the drama and they go around panicking when I'm hurt like their life is at stake.

I think they are being mean to me.

They think they're all that.

They're just talking more trash.

They keep feeding me trash and putting my relationship up at stake as a threat.

I'm not sure if something is serious, but my dad acted like he said I have to be like someone else in something important in a relationship I have that is not good and that I dislike and didn't have to follow before crap.

What if she did it and it isn't that bad, but is it perfect?

You know, I did see the older lady cancel out my popularity and claim I wasn't popular anymore.

She thought she could save me but whatever happened only made it worse.

I don’t come with problems.

They keep ruining the older lady I like or use her to bother me.

They keep testing me.

It seems like smeone thinks they can judge me and ruin my life forever.

It seems like they’re cracking a joke.

They think they are so important compared to others.

People hate me more for no reason.

Also, now she gets inappropriate stimulation every day all over the world.

It’s like she got away like it’s serious.

Threy want to make me think of other people more indefinitely.

They keep making a mess of this.

They keep being testy.