Sunday, June 16, 2019

I can see them take everything.  I don't talk about it to the older lady.  I'm sorta already after people who did this and made it look attractive when it didn't even help, except maybe the idea I don't matter and people go in and mess with my life.
It might be too bad for some for all they tried.
The people monitoring me in private want me to lose things I get like they gave them to me.
I just got the idea they'd do that to the older lady but not other people.
They do come on all special like they have something to announce but not quite right.  I'm not sure what they're going to do, but they are appalling some of the influence on what happens to my life, like some people think they are magic to me and therefore they have overcome me, "man to man."
It's like I can't say anything.  I don't know because everyone thinks I'm sarcastic when others are and I'm not.
They want me to sit here and nod at them or else.
So, someone did some things for me, and other people supposedly are trying to take it away.
It's not cute how it's a party I'm pretended to be in trouble and everyone else is fine.
I'm not sure what everyone's useless babble is about, the people who think they know me because we've met or spoken rather briefly, like they can tell the tale on my life, like there's something best to mess with.  I have tried to speak with them.  I used to be respected.  How can this happen?
They're not here to pack their bags and go because they were already supposed to be working on that.
They can't seem to stop saying things now.
So, they act like maybe it's okay but they're not kidding about some things.  I just wanted to say.  Maybe, I don't do much, but that is certified, bonafide trash, filling an unavoidable void.
They are delirious and inconsiderate if they think they can go in and present their idea like that, which I disagree with.  Whoever said anyone wanted this, their meanness?
I dunno, maybe they act like they are kidding, but they are just so annoying.
What's with Orlando cruising around in supposed innocence? like they've been able to settle their business.
When will these people stop.  They regenerated.
The people monitoring me in private have them up doing this.  I don't think it's a good idea, and I think it's crass.
Their next dumb ditzy idea was to push for not caring about me in some way.  How outspoken.  It's not really their place.  How abhorring.
The people monitoring me in private think they have a command over me.
There are annoying, incompetent people in my life trying to make decisions for me reaching in like they are doing an older lady I like a favor to ruin our relationship.

Saturday, June 15, 2019

So, Orlando makes my life evolve at a more rapid pace concentrating on nightmares from trouble.
It's always like "Orlando" had a long talk and came up with some new way to destroy my life.  What are they holding out for that is bad to happen to me so they can finally forget about me?
People keep acting on the verge of something and then it turns out they "know something" to do with my relationship with an older lady and now they think they can take things away in her place.
If they didn't exploit the older lady, she wouldn't be ruined.
I can't stop like things are okay.
People won't stop going over the top trying to affect and change and older lady I like from me somewhat permanently.
I get in trouble for little things that are not really bad and it hurts me or my relationship with an older lady.
I felt I was told by the people monitoring me in private maybe I would look older, less pleasure in a childlike way or something, and then I just look more disinterested, and older.

What's going on? What do you want?

Why would anyone just blankly out of nowhere stare and nod and seem to say it's too bad for me the older lady I like is gonna be taken and exploited - that's tacky.  Explanation ever? after all these years of stuff?
Why can it be a last resort to say I'm bad to post here?
For some reason, it bothers me people talking about the older lady I like in ways that punish me like I'm in trouble like it's too bad.
Someone for some reason calculated they could talk over me like I'm bad.
I can't feel comfortable sometimes.
They are acting like I did something wrong by posting here and put the older lady away from me to be ruined from my by someone else.  Everyone's "in."
My little brother is still caught up in the irony of me being seen as did something wrong by my dad and his constant torture like I'm not all that.
They think I did nothing good when I'm just stuck with something bad.
No!  What is wrong with you?  I didn't say I thought that.
They won't stop and are making more problems-
What do you think I am?

They just reacted like this is their moment.
I keep being overflowed with mean messages and "actions."
Suddenly, they came up with another reason to say it's not that bad but maybe still some bad, though they think I was bad.
They keep acting like I'm not a lady.  It's probably their fault.  I have to wait for money to get new clothes.
I feel they want to stop the older lady from talking to me etc.

If they didn't do these problems, we wouldn't have these problems.
The people outside are saying she's being transformed from me.  Why can't they just leave my relationship alone?  They are up to no good.
Hey, I didn't do anything, what are you waiting for?  Why are they upset if I post here.  When they do something it feels like it's dangling from me, and so I put it here, instead.
Well, they just changed the Google search icons, any suggestions?
They keep making up stuff like I'm not a lady.
They think I'm not a lady like the older lady I like so she gets everything.
I said they were being mean more.
They want me to accept what they do and not post here.  I got mad and hit my sofa etc. when I could not get it out some other way like this.  They don't allow physical anger, even alone.
I felt something and suddenly it means the older lady is involved and people monitoring me in private did it.
The people monitoring me in private keep acting like I succumbed.
They are teasing me that I can't have the older lady because she didn't start the idea of monitoring me in private.
Supposedly, a famous person hurting my relationship with an older lady woke up to that I was posting how, and now they are promoting repeating the name of the older lady I like to ruin her, so she won't care about me.  They're all dreaming she's to fly to her, like she's all that anyway when she's mean.

So, I started to report her here, and now they spread around personal information about an older lady I like.

They also said I couldn't meet her and admitting things I'm not supposed to talk about.
Someone wants to try to exploit the older lady I like again, "caught red-handed."  She thinks it's the thing to do and makes excuses but just wants to hate on me.
People are breaking out because I said what someone did without naming them and did it more than once or twice.  They supposedly won't stop.  Nothing to worry about that I said it.

Sometimes I don’t know if something is a secret message and it hurts me like Operant conditioning.

I het secret messages I’m not sure if I got.

My relationship keeps getting ruined sneakily.

They keep bothering me technically for no reason.

Why did someone have to get antsy snd lose it and say to listen to someone they admitted were wrong and to keep going and acting approving they take my relationships as a suggestion, people I meet.

The people monitoring me in private won't stop, like the older lady let them.

I got threatened...

Someone is doing many things against my relationship with an older lady.  She wants her to have a relationship with some younger girls but instead.

My aunt wants my relationship for her daughter, my younger cousin.

My oldest aunt made me feel off so I couldn’t text fast anymore a few years ago.

They just had a big one.  One of them seems like they are being dorky and self-satisfied, the favorite who silences everyone when they walk in the room, going against me and regaining fuel.  I feel submissive to just sit here and take things in stride.

People I know are claiming an older lady I like has vouched for their passage of ruining my life and dislocating and confiscating our relationship.

Friday, June 14, 2019

I have also been "kicked out" and told I am indecent to remain or return.
Orlando can't keep its "big mouth shut."
Why is Orlando so negative?  They are a nuisance to life itself.
People keep acting like I'm in trouble and they're not and can't be.
The people monitoring me in private act like I'm in trouble, but I can do whatever I want.
Someone wants to wait and not yet talk to me but come up when I want to talk to someone else and ruin the relationship intervening insecurely sometimes a lot.
It's rude for Orlando to ask why there is a problem because they helped.
According to what's current, someone destroyed my life forever in destroying a relationship I had with an older lady.
The people who want to affect the older lady I like and invade her peace ... what if we dropped them in the Middle East?
I'm pretty mad at whoever is acting like or trying to ruin the older lady I like.
I get to hear the battle cries of Orlando, convinced it's always over with.
Someone keeps attacking my relationship.
They don't do much but get really mad at some things.
The people monitoring me in private keep bothering me with stupid things and pretending I'm a bad person.  My aunt must have some problem, too, thinking if I show any physical sign of anger it's over and big things get taken from me.  What a lie, she used to act like she thought I was so amazing.
Over and over.
I'm just waiting for them to come back and do the same thing.
It's not even acceptable.
I mean how viscous they are.
It's such an unbelievable joke.
My dad and his sisters are being mean to me, and unfortunately so was my younger cousin.  It's like their a vicious cat ready to claw, I know they are mistaken and just violent and upset about their life and want to take something from yours for no reason, some abstract thing that doesn't even pertain.  This has got to be some joke of a family.  They don't even know me.  Why are they suddenly involved to take from my life?  Are they competing with me, coming to my life?  They are just so objectionable and don't realize it.  Why are the people monitoring me in private letting this happen?  Maybe, they have the same problem.
I don't like her domineering attitude over me.  I just messaged her because I didn't want her to get upset at me with her daughter seeming to secretly fight me.
My aunt seems upset with me and is telling me what to do.  It's like she wants to ruin a relationship she knows about I have for her daughter.  She's just started before whining about it, like it's not for me.  I was worried it would affect my relationship, and she blatantly brought up time and trashed me, when I'm the one who's always good.
Some of Orlando, you just can't leave them alone.  My life as evolved out of sanity.
They don't want me to be happy with the older lady!
What if ... my dad still has to say ... "that woman still will talk to Christina" after all she's done?  I want them both to be okay.
You know, the messages from this person keep coming.  Same with when I saw others I thought didn't care to communicate with me appropriately.
They want this person to affect me like some dork for the rest of my life and thereafter, what dorks.
They keep ruining the older lady I like for me.
Everyone is avoiding all these famous people since it was publicized on purpose an older lady I like I met.
They said they are making someone touch me all over a lot without me knowing how I don't want.
I could see my dad saying that yes the older lady I like was overly aroused to be ruined for me because I did something he has a problem with, which might not really mean much anyway.

Also, I'm convinced Orlando thinks she's not important to me but their kids are to them for instance.