Saturday, June 15, 2019

I get in trouble for little things that are not really bad and it hurts me or my relationship with an older lady.
I felt I was told by the people monitoring me in private maybe I would look older, less pleasure in a childlike way or something, and then I just look more disinterested, and older.

What's going on? What do you want?

Why would anyone just blankly out of nowhere stare and nod and seem to say it's too bad for me the older lady I like is gonna be taken and exploited - that's tacky.  Explanation ever? after all these years of stuff?
Why can it be a last resort to say I'm bad to post here?
For some reason, it bothers me people talking about the older lady I like in ways that punish me like I'm in trouble like it's too bad.
Someone for some reason calculated they could talk over me like I'm bad.
I can't feel comfortable sometimes.
They are acting like I did something wrong by posting here and put the older lady away from me to be ruined from my by someone else.  Everyone's "in."
My little brother is still caught up in the irony of me being seen as did something wrong by my dad and his constant torture like I'm not all that.
They think I did nothing good when I'm just stuck with something bad.
No!  What is wrong with you?  I didn't say I thought that.
They won't stop and are making more problems-
What do you think I am?

They just reacted like this is their moment.
I keep being overflowed with mean messages and "actions."
Suddenly, they came up with another reason to say it's not that bad but maybe still some bad, though they think I was bad.
They keep acting like I'm not a lady.  It's probably their fault.  I have to wait for money to get new clothes.
I feel they want to stop the older lady from talking to me etc.

If they didn't do these problems, we wouldn't have these problems.
The people outside are saying she's being transformed from me.  Why can't they just leave my relationship alone?  They are up to no good.
Hey, I didn't do anything, what are you waiting for?  Why are they upset if I post here.  When they do something it feels like it's dangling from me, and so I put it here, instead.
Well, they just changed the Google search icons, any suggestions?
They keep making up stuff like I'm not a lady.
They think I'm not a lady like the older lady I like so she gets everything.
I said they were being mean more.
They want me to accept what they do and not post here.  I got mad and hit my sofa etc. when I could not get it out some other way like this.  They don't allow physical anger, even alone.
I felt something and suddenly it means the older lady is involved and people monitoring me in private did it.
The people monitoring me in private keep acting like I succumbed.
They are teasing me that I can't have the older lady because she didn't start the idea of monitoring me in private.
Supposedly, a famous person hurting my relationship with an older lady woke up to that I was posting how, and now they are promoting repeating the name of the older lady I like to ruin her, so she won't care about me.  They're all dreaming she's to fly to her, like she's all that anyway when she's mean.

So, I started to report her here, and now they spread around personal information about an older lady I like.

They also said I couldn't meet her and admitting things I'm not supposed to talk about.
Someone wants to try to exploit the older lady I like again, "caught red-handed."  She thinks it's the thing to do and makes excuses but just wants to hate on me.
People are breaking out because I said what someone did without naming them and did it more than once or twice.  They supposedly won't stop.  Nothing to worry about that I said it.

Sometimes I don’t know if something is a secret message and it hurts me like Operant conditioning.

I het secret messages I’m not sure if I got.

My relationship keeps getting ruined sneakily.

They keep bothering me technically for no reason.

Why did someone have to get antsy snd lose it and say to listen to someone they admitted were wrong and to keep going and acting approving they take my relationships as a suggestion, people I meet.

The people monitoring me in private won't stop, like the older lady let them.

I got threatened...

Someone is doing many things against my relationship with an older lady.  She wants her to have a relationship with some younger girls but instead.

My aunt wants my relationship for her daughter, my younger cousin.

My oldest aunt made me feel off so I couldn’t text fast anymore a few years ago.

They just had a big one.  One of them seems like they are being dorky and self-satisfied, the favorite who silences everyone when they walk in the room, going against me and regaining fuel.  I feel submissive to just sit here and take things in stride.

People I know are claiming an older lady I like has vouched for their passage of ruining my life and dislocating and confiscating our relationship.

Friday, June 14, 2019

I have also been "kicked out" and told I am indecent to remain or return.
Orlando can't keep its "big mouth shut."
Why is Orlando so negative?  They are a nuisance to life itself.
People keep acting like I'm in trouble and they're not and can't be.
The people monitoring me in private act like I'm in trouble, but I can do whatever I want.
Someone wants to wait and not yet talk to me but come up when I want to talk to someone else and ruin the relationship intervening insecurely sometimes a lot.
It's rude for Orlando to ask why there is a problem because they helped.
According to what's current, someone destroyed my life forever in destroying a relationship I had with an older lady.
The people who want to affect the older lady I like and invade her peace ... what if we dropped them in the Middle East?
I'm pretty mad at whoever is acting like or trying to ruin the older lady I like.
I get to hear the battle cries of Orlando, convinced it's always over with.
Someone keeps attacking my relationship.
They don't do much but get really mad at some things.
The people monitoring me in private keep bothering me with stupid things and pretending I'm a bad person.  My aunt must have some problem, too, thinking if I show any physical sign of anger it's over and big things get taken from me.  What a lie, she used to act like she thought I was so amazing.
Over and over.
I'm just waiting for them to come back and do the same thing.
It's not even acceptable.
I mean how viscous they are.
It's such an unbelievable joke.
My dad and his sisters are being mean to me, and unfortunately so was my younger cousin.  It's like their a vicious cat ready to claw, I know they are mistaken and just violent and upset about their life and want to take something from yours for no reason, some abstract thing that doesn't even pertain.  This has got to be some joke of a family.  They don't even know me.  Why are they suddenly involved to take from my life?  Are they competing with me, coming to my life?  They are just so objectionable and don't realize it.  Why are the people monitoring me in private letting this happen?  Maybe, they have the same problem.
I don't like her domineering attitude over me.  I just messaged her because I didn't want her to get upset at me with her daughter seeming to secretly fight me.
My aunt seems upset with me and is telling me what to do.  It's like she wants to ruin a relationship she knows about I have for her daughter.  She's just started before whining about it, like it's not for me.  I was worried it would affect my relationship, and she blatantly brought up time and trashed me, when I'm the one who's always good.
Some of Orlando, you just can't leave them alone.  My life as evolved out of sanity.
They don't want me to be happy with the older lady!
What if ... my dad still has to say ... "that woman still will talk to Christina" after all she's done?  I want them both to be okay.
You know, the messages from this person keep coming.  Same with when I saw others I thought didn't care to communicate with me appropriately.
They want this person to affect me like some dork for the rest of my life and thereafter, what dorks.
They keep ruining the older lady I like for me.
Everyone is avoiding all these famous people since it was publicized on purpose an older lady I like I met.
They said they are making someone touch me all over a lot without me knowing how I don't want.
I could see my dad saying that yes the older lady I like was overly aroused to be ruined for me because I did something he has a problem with, which might not really mean much anyway.

Also, I'm convinced Orlando thinks she's not important to me but their kids are to them for instance.

Thursday, June 13, 2019

It's like they're all fancy with their gadgets like I'm just shit dealing with emotional abuse and this.
So what, we can still blame the people directly involved or just all of them about maybe.
They and the public are hypnotized that I'm inappropriate but kinda like Johnny Depp too being cool.  They say why not try the older lady I like, like my relationship to her is "up for grabs."
See, it is a problem, in the end, pretending I'm in trouble to that degree.
Why are there always problems about me going around here, I hear the cars outside, even some with my earplugs in.
Don't act like that all did not just happen.
I'm tired of dealing with this stupidity.  It just comes back.  More is made.
Why does my relationship keep coming up.  Can you stop.
When will these violent animals stop ruining my life?  Not "are they" but "when."
The cars are whining selfishly like they are sure I am sadly in trouble.  I don't care.
My relationship is being compensated because I e-mailed my aunts about a problem.
I'm being threatened...
I guess it's my responsibility.
They keep teasing me like the older lady I like is dumping me for others in extreme and far out ways that don't seem to even make sense or exist.  I'm not even the one who wants everyone obsessing about her all the time, but if that's what it is...
So, like my dad demands... it's getting worse and worse.

I don't want to be bossed around.
No, I did the right thing ^because I wanted to^.
I'm not allowed to complain about stuff like it's okay.  This is bad, and I sense other thoughts coming to them.  They just keep being annoying.  It seems like it's gone too far.  I can't do anything without them getting mad.
The people monitoring me in private etc. keep bothering me.

They are saying someone I know is getting closer than me to someone I like in a teasing way when I do something, like I wrote a note to some people about someone else.

The people on Twitter I follow about places are mad at me for being from Southeastern Florida.  Like, are you gonna tell me where you're from?
People in Orlando all swear an older lady said what they said, so they can save up for something big and call it off.
Some people have things happen to them without saying anything.
Why do some people like it when something stupid happens and it's no one's fault? and I get in trouble?  People are crazy who believe that.
I don't care if people are jealous of things they shouldn't be aware of.  Mind your own business.
Funny when it seems things are given to me I didn't ask for and what I should have in some form taken from me.
My dad being mad ruined my life.
It seems like I'm always in trouble with some things even if I'm nice.
I know they have a VIP to do mean things to me because of my past being psychiatrically beaten in Orlando, like there must just be something wrong with me because though these people were doing it they thought it was impossible.
It's getting uncomfortable sitting here with the people monitoring me in private after it was sworn I would always be on about someone how I don't want because it's not even realistic and is schizophrenic.