Wednesday, June 5, 2019

They said she even said to make me think of someone for 2 days.

It’s like they lied and planned this all along.

I noticed I just keep being distanced from an older lady I like pretending I should be in serious trouble.  It’s lke all this haunting me is okay all these years.

I guess no one else is!
So, what can you do or say?  I'm worried about the older lady I like because she was nice to me.
Funny how it seems certain people who know each other tend to need to get back at you.
It's probably a sin to find me guilty and unlikely you'd have to comply otherwise.  If so, this is bad.  ...

My mom seemed uncomfortable when we moved from Florida looking back at videos.  My dad seemed like he couldn't or wouldn't do anything.  We moved to the Orlando area, and he became more of a discomfort, and it ruined a lot of people's lives in a chain reaction.
They're trying to force me to be put down with someone else compared to an older lady I like, who has my reputation from me.
Orlando.  Is.  Shit.
I'm against people, including my dad, controlling my life, and at 33.
They just can't get enough, taking turns?
I see it's a system to say I shouldn't be wanted and I'm shit.
People all the time act like all the attention has to go to an older lady I like, pressuring her to have an episode if something is about someone else, to let out a peep.
I'm not the system when people think they realize selfish mistakes.
They just keep speaking in code like something bad has to be said like that's their friendly nudge of another message and they get mad if I feel upset even when just at first.
How gay, people can't shut up.
Supposedly something was for me and everyone pitched in like something wasn't right about that.
This is disgusting.
They keep thinking in their minds they got "the last word in."
Other people are out allowed to have fun, and the only downset is me when before it wasn't.
What's wrong with you?  Do you think I'm stupid?  You've made my life shit and for a long time and without end in sight.  I keep going through this shit, and you don't even know what I'm talking about and act like you don't know stuff and I sit here just playing trivia.
They keep making more problems...
"What a waste of time."
They are trying to assimilate me to people's bad side.
They are bothering me because they are up to no good.
They want me to believe the older lady is stepping back, only for me once a year.
They "have too much time on their hands."
They're punishing me!  Because I feel upset when they disturb my sleeping too much for me to handle.
Can you just stop?  What if someone else dies like my mom did?
Those selfish, "no good" cars outside keep whining that I get something bad.
They won't stop, either the people monitoring me in private or if the older lady still accepts me it's like she did it.
I'm having a bad time being blamed for showing physical signs of anger, even in private.  They have too many grudges on me.
It's like the older lady is punishing me for something...
How dare I talk about my problems??

Well, how dare people make me hated by more people, how is that better?  Is it just in it "by a long shot?"
It's like all the things people don't want were thrown at me and the older lady made my reputation bad, though she's not the type and I'm not saying it in a mean way.
I don't agree on part of people monitoring me in private saying someone is talking to me through them like this, meanly.
Why should I sit here all day listening to these people do this.  I came here to relax.
I am suspicious of how this older lady I like sorta took over my good reputation I accumulated and now says I can't know her.  I'm not trying to be mean, though.
So, because I was upset before my mom died, I lose important things?
They keep pretending I submitted.
They keep acting like someone else is talking to me and probably it's hurtful about her.
The people monitoring me in private keep falling apart.
It seems like an older lady I like had me abused.  I just am not sure and don't think so.
Just sit there and stare like it's ruined, you greedy people!
Everyone is acting like someone did something stupid to me and conquered me.  How greedy, selfish, and worthless these people are...
It's either unfortunate or because of the cruelty.
I don't have much.
I feel people are being mean to me with my mom dying, some lives out there.
They are acting like someone said to abuse me.
They keep ruining my life.  It's like good things aren't happening.

The people in the Orlando area won’t shut up and are acting stupid.

People in the Orlando area are trying to communicate with me nastily and then just leave.

Well, they're acting like I did something wrong at some point in my life.
If I talk about something, they ruin it.
When I post about other people, they think something happened.

Tuesday, June 4, 2019

I can't figure out if it's 2nd nature or the doings of people involved monitoring me in private.
I keep having to monitor what goes on in my body physically by how I feel because I keep getting thrown off.
I'm even more uncomfortable that I'm in trouble for no reason.
Why am I attacked so much these days?  I am tired of being stuck with some of these people.
Whoever this is done for is crazy.
They won't stop ruining it for me.
They keep acting like I should be content I'm "stuck" with someone else she has a relationship while she takes my place in the world and I'm "left hanging."
I hear the cars outside getting their message and saying the older lady I like is indecent.
The people monitoring me in private keep ruining it.

They supposedly made the older lady I like inappropriate.
They keep trying to give me a buzz about problems with her and our relationship, which was fine before they came in.
A car outside thought it would be about the older lady I like, no explanation in English, and I would not know.
They keep teasing me, like it's been constant radar about the older lady I like and our relationship being messed up since 2016.
What's the problem?
They're just taking everything from me like they're supposed to.
They want to punish me every time I post a problem on my problems blog.
It's like she's losing it, and they are being nasty.
The people monitoring me in private keep revealing the older lady I like.
It seems like it's getting worse just for posting here.
People are so excited about this older lady, which I had or was going to have a private relationship with, like I ever mattered.
A car outside said an older lady I like will do something I don't like if I'm "already writing."
They are waiting and then saying she said so.  A likely story she did it alone?
They keep saying I lost my relationship with an older lady.
They keep making problems and more when they make me mad just because I showed a physical reaction even in private.

If something seems off and they have nothing to do, they make more problems.

Monday, June 3, 2019

They said something like it was okay...
They are gonna punish me for squealing in my room when mad.
They said an older lady is said 2 days to think about someone else and then coming back is never or that's forever.

I don't know...

I heard a car go by saying more.


I just thought I'd delete something and was tired and went to bed.
They keep making it hard for me and I look ugly to them because I don't have fine, straight, blonde hair
I'm having troubles from my dad's monetary issues as I save but sometimes something happens.
They kept bothering me like they got all hyper and pressed a button.  They think I shouldn't have spent some money on something, in a special situation.
I'm being intimidated and physically abused that way on my computer.
My relationship with an older lady I like is being ruined and they are trying to find special fault in her.
The people monitoring me in private don't tell me if they really are someone else abusing me online.

Sunday, June 2, 2019

who are involved against me
...but other people can?
Is it already the "plan" I don't "get" anything?
It's not okay, and I don't know how to stop some problems.
They keep coming up with silly problems with what I do, but others are okay for them.
Some people said I did something wrong and it's too late.  Silly things seem to be happening to me.
I guess one thing people use is me because it's something they can agree on that they find no use of me.  That must be like sex, which doesn't even mean intercourse.
Okay...

They are collecting my private thoughts etc. and just punishing me at 33.
Okay, I finally noticed shit that doesn't belong on my blog, so I'll post my problem here.

I was sorta told something was okay and than slammed for it.
How did I get on the bad side of certain people or a facet of someone or them?
They keep going crazy using someone like I did something to mess with an older lady I am supposed to have a relationship with.  They are acting like it's serious now for some reason.
My little brother I live with is acting like I'm menial to him, like these days he is the one who has it together over me, "a likely story."
My brother came in acting like an older lady I like said to say something mean like I was shit if something.

The people monitoring me in private seemed to respond to the idea it seemed like they said something when the page loaded and seemed to say something twice.